Whac-a-mole

My brain wants to shut down and my body wants to give up. I can’t make them connect right now and despite trying to keep afloat with humor and a “we’ll beat it again!” attitude, I’m concerned that I’m running way too far past empty to keep up this charade. For those of you who […]

Despite all the hard work I’m doing on changing my perspective, there are days here and there where I just crumble like a delicate butter cookie under the weight of an 18-wheeler wearing snow chains. Yesterday was one of those days, so today I’m sporting what I’ve dubbed a “sad hangover.” I’m all achy and […]

Down Dog

You might have heard that our beloved Yoshi – a completely adorable, yet ridiculously unintelligent dog – died this past April after a run-in with some raspberry flavored IceBreakers sugar-free gum. I had no idea that the Xylitol featured in this sort of gum was toxic to dogs and would most likely result in liver […]

For my Sister

My dear, darling Sister, Today is going to be very difficult. Attending Anthony’s graduation without his being there has to be another knife in your weary heart. I’m sorry I’m not there to celebrate his achievement and hold your hand as this milestone he worked so hard for passes you by without him in attendance. […]

Safe Space

I sat on his bed for what seemed like hours, gazing at him and looking around his room at the few things he found important enough to display: a couple of hockey items, the plaque he was awarded from the Aurora Police Department, and then the hordes of Nintendo collectibles – his most prized possessions. […]

Going for the Win

I know I’ve shut down a bit lately. Getting the news that Ben’s disease has progressed despite being on chemo really threw me over the edge. This has never happened before. Therapy has always made him better. Yes, he relapses a lot, but therapy has always helped. And now that it isn’t, well, that’s simply […]

Kirkersville, Ohio – the place where I grew up – is a teeny tiny village about 25 miles east of Columbus. The population of this village nestled along the South Fork of the Licking River is approximately 500. I didn’t even know I grew up along the South Fork of the Licking River, (which I […]

Love and Loss

Gah. Where to start? All the celebrity death? Losing important members of my musical family – the musicians who babysat me during my formative years when I felt super weird in a ’round-hole-square-peg’ way. It turns out that I was not weird at all from the casual observer’s viewpoint, but the insecurities of my childhood […]